A little bit of everything

So this is new to me. And I am afraid that this could be all over the place. But I have a lot on my mind and so just bear with me. First I will clue you all in on who I really am. I am a conservative, Christian, 21 year old, SAHM. I am very shy, but not when you get to know me. I am outgoing, I love doing new things. I am CRAZY EMOTIONAL, which makes me passionate about the people and things in my life. I am a great friend, but I have few that I hold dear to me. I am loyal to the end. Which has been a down fall of mine. I am just now learning that every once and a while, it is okay to let go. I try to live my life for the Lord, which is not always easy. I fall down and screw up all the time, but that just makes me who I am now! And I can't regret that. I have 2 little boys. Garrett turned 2 October 4th, and Gideon was born on Sept 29th. My children are God's greatest gift to me. Garrett has been there through everything with me. They are one of the biggest accomplishments of my life. All right that is over now...Just thought I should tell you a little of what you are getting yourself into when you read my blog. :)

You know I have learned that marriage is not for push-overs. And let me tell you, as much as I love my husband, it takes a STRONG woman to be married to him. It drives me crazy, because he not only is so attached to his Mom, and brother that it is weird...But he feels the need to try and break you down. And I have to say that I am a little sick of it. You know I know that I am not SKINNY. But I am not unhealthy. And for having 2 kids, one just barely 3 months ago...I think I look pretty darn good. But yet he feels the need to tell me CONSTANTLY, that I need to start working out...or monitors how much I am eating. It is ridiculous. And it is believed that my job as a house wife/SAHM...is to cook, clean, and pleasure him. HAHAHA!!! I know...I laughed too. Because he has told me that, but I also got that speech from his MOM!!! I know it's nuts. Well, our latest adventure has been these last few weeks. My husband seems to think that even though he has worked 2 1/2 days out of the last 3 weeks...we can still buy a house. I am starting to think...it is never gonna happen. But so last night (my husband works nights) before he leaves for work, he tells me that you need to get the kitchen and the living room clean, and go and get groceries. We need Milk, bread, and laundry detergent. I said, "it is snowing and freezing rain out there I am not going anywhere!" He yelled and said that it was not that bad and that I would be fine. So I said "ok. I will go after Garrett wakes up." So I did. I barely made it out of the Fred Meyers parking lot. But I was determined to make it home. And this is all after I called him and said ... "it is really icy, I don't think I can make it home, what do you want me to do?" He told me to go home and that I would be fine. And if I made it there I can make it back, and that I should not have gone out. So I am driving. like 15MPH on a road that is 35. Started stopping for a red light...and it was by God'd grace that no one was around me. I flew into the oncoming traffic lane, I tried to fix myself finally got back on my side of the road flew across the other lane and ran right into the curb. HARD. Mind you I have 2 kids in my back seat. I called him bawling saying I got in an accident I hit the curb and that I was not going to be able to make it home. First thing he asks "Did you hurt the car or the tires?" Yes honey, me and the kids are fine!! He yelled at me. It was stupid. My sister, Shayna...came to my rescue though. Sort of.

I am grateful for my husband. And the rest of my family...But for crying out loud GROW UP!!

The weather is still bad. I have such horrible cabin fever. It is cold in my house, and my kids are both having not the best days. I am still trying to get Garrett to take a nap, Gideon is okay right now...But still. I wanted my sister to come over and watch a movie. But it is once again freezing out there...so no driving for us. If something happens to her...I can't come to her rescue. Tomorrow, I am hoping that we can go get the boys' pictures taken. And Sunday hopefully to see Santa. I still have Christmas cards to mail, and Christmas presents to buy! GAH!! Let's just say...I am not dreaming of a white Christmas. I wish is was 90 degrees and beautiful out!!

Well, I am done for now...I am gonna get carpel tunnel if I keep typing. Thanks for reading.

XOXO
Sarah