New Arrival!!

This last Monday, another blessing came into our lives.

We went in at 5:30 in the morning to get ready for my c-section. My mother got to the house around 4:30 to keep an eye on the boys. We didn't want to wake them up so she came out to be with them. We got to the hospital got checked in, put on my gown and hopped into bed. Right away they started running my IV, and getting things ready for the birth of my little girl. The doctor came in at 7:30, told us that they were running a tad late because of an emergency, but that we would be ready soon. I called my mom to tell her about the delay and when I got off the phone at 8 the nurse came in and said "okay!! Let's go!!" I got out of bed got the other robe on so my behind didn't hang out and walked to the OR. They let Gary come in the room and everything...even during the prep!! The anesthesiologist was kind of rude to Gary and I though...And it took her 2 TIMES to do my spinal!!! OWIE!!!! That part was not the highlight of my surgery. And then before I knew it at 8:24 am, on October 19Th 2009, weighing 7 pounds nine ounces, and 20 and a half inches tall, my daughter Isabella Katherine Wayne Frongner was born! She is beautiful! God has truly blessed me.

Happy Birthday Garrett!!

October 4th, 2006 something amazing happened to me. My first child was born. Garrett Bailey-Earl Frongner. After a hard 2 days of being induced and my labor not progressing and being 42 weeks pregnant I finally said "ENOUGH!!! I don't care how you do it, just GET HIM OUT!!" So on Wednesday morning at around 9:30 am, my first little angel made his way into the world via c-section. Weighing 7 pounds 14 ounces and his length was a whopping 21 3/4 inches!!

Now I can hardly believe that my first baby. The baby I had at 19 years old just turned 3!! He has been going through a lot of changes too. He is growing like a weed and wearing 4-5t clothes. He is now potty trained and he got a brand new big boy bed. That is Cars!! It is sad though, because he misses his crib. :(

But here are some pictures of my little Gar-Bear!!

XOXO

Sarah

Gideon Riley Jonas Frongner turns one!

Okay, So this last tuesday my baby...my little yoda, my little pumpkin head turned 1!!!!! I cannot believe how fast time flies. It seriously doesn't even seem like it has been that long since I had Gideon.

He was born Via C-Section on Septmeber 29th 2008, at 6:09 pm, weighing in at a grand total of 8 pounds 3 ounces, and was 20 inches long. Here are some pictures of that wonderful day!!

I wish I had the pictures from the party and his actual bday, but we just got a new computer and I don't know how to totally work it yet!! :)

XOXO

Sarah

September 10th 2005

September 10th 2005 was the day of my wedding. Mind you, I did get married in a small ceremony in August as well. But my Big wedding was this day. Four years ago. I cannot believe it. I cannot believe that I have been married for four years--or that I have been pregnant 3 out of those 4. :)

Everything seemed like it was going to be so easy then...God only knows, it has not been a walk in the park. But I love Gary even more now than I did then. Who knew. I thought I would just share some pictures...I love my wedding pictures.

Happy Anniversary to me!! Here are just a few.

Thanks for looking.

XOXO

Sarah

Baby Bella

Pregnancy is funny to me. I thought with this being my last pregnancy, it would go by SO slow...But really, it feels like I just found out I was pregnant. I am 32 and a half weeks pregnant. My c-section is schedualed for the 19th of October. Just a month and a half away. Sounds funny. I never thought that I would be 22 years old and be on my third and last child. But honestly I do not know if my body could handle another pregnancy. Which I won't say that I am not a little dissapointed about. Mind you, I was always the one who wanted like 8 kids. But 3 will be okay. I got my boys, and now my girl. Seems like it turned out perfect!!
The name we have chosen, everyone says that I got from Twilight. IT IS NOT!!! Really, it is just the only name that Gary and I would agree on. :) If I had my way her name would have been Gwendolyn. To keep the 'G' theme...But Gary hated it, and EVERY OTHER ONE I CAME UP WITH. Finally, I wrote a list of like 50 names and out of that 50 he picked like 3 he liked. So her name, if you do not already know is going to be Isabella. Isabella Katherine________ Frongner. We have a feeling what the second middle name is going to be, but it is not completly settled yet. Gary would like his grandmother's name who passed away. But it is not 100% yet.

I don't really worry about having a third baby....I know that I can handle it. What I do worry about is if Gideon will be okay. Because he is still just a baby. He still needs me. But he should be alright. I hope. Garrett is excited. He keeps telling me that Baby Bella is coming in the door. LOL. And I have to explain that not today!! :) He also has just informed me that he has a baby Bella in his belly. And she moves A LOT!! It is just too cute!

I am interested to see what she will look like. Because Garrett, looks just like me. Gideon looks like Gary's side of the family. What is she going to look like? Will she be the one who is just a total mix? Or will she favor me, or Gary? I hope she looks like me. :) I cannot help it though. I would love for her to have Garrett's curly hair though!!!!!

Well I just wanted to write some things down.

XOXO

Sarah

PS. Those pictures are really the only good ones I have that show the belly. I AM HUGE!!!!

Updates & Summer fun

Wow, It has been a while since I have written. I have been so busy. This summer has been just wonderful. Besides all the heat, I could not have asked for a better summer. I offically have just a short 1 and a half months left of being pregnant. Garrett is now potty trained!! YAY!!! I was not having 3 kids in diapers. Gideon has been working on trying to walk, not quite, but he could if he wanted to! And he now has 3 teeth with the 4th one trying to break through.

We have done many things. We have gone to the river, We went to the fair, stayed home and played in the sprinkler. It has been a good summer. Full of relaxing and fun. I love spending time with my boys. But it sure will be nice to have a little girl to dress!!

Gary and I decided that we are Officially done having children. This pregnancy has been pretty hard on my body. I will be having my tubes tied, if we can get providence to sign on that... Plus if we want more later we can always just adopt or something. Which I would be fine with. :) Or get a puppy. :) My c section has been schedualed for the 19th of October. I am so excited. Garrett keeps asking: "Baby Bella come in the door now?" He says that everytime he see's my belly roll. I love it.

Here are some pictures of milestones, and activities we did this summer. :)

Sorry this was a little picture heavy. But I wanted to share a lot!! :)

XOXO

Sarah

Summer time

I love summer. Who doesn't?? There is sun, fun, activities what more can you ask for? Not too much. You know what I do hate though? Being pregnant through the summer!!! I am so glad this is my last time! :) But I just thought I would share some pictures of summer fun!

Garrett coming out of the maze at Enchanted forest!

Gary and Garrett playing on the playground.

Garrett at the water park.

Me waiting for Gideon to start screaming when the water touches him!!

My boys on Jack and Jill's Hill at Enchanted Forest.

The Family on the slide. Gary and Gideon, Me and Garrett!

Good and Bad

So much has been going on. I don't know how people are not going NUTS!! I know I have been. This week has been a crazy week. First off, I found out on Tuesday...that my Grandma died. She was old. She was sick. But a lot has been bothering me. Like why my family did not go and visit more. Why she was never lucky enough to see me be a mother. The last time I saw my grandparents, it was nearly 4 years ago. Right after Gary and I got married. But yet, it seems like so much longer. So tomorrow, we are making the five hour trip to the funeral. Fun thing, We have to make the trip and back in one day. Because Gary's family is also in town. Just our luck!! But death is never convenient.

I do have a little more news. I am just over 20 weeks pregnant. My due date is the 24Th of October. My third little one. I went in on Tuesday to find out what the sex is. I know ironic that I would find out about my Grandma, and what sex the baby is in the same day. And, it seems like God blessed me with a.....................baby GIRL!! I am so excited. I cannot wait. This will be my last pregnancy. Because, I promised Gary, if this was a girl I was done!! So, I am done. Tubes will be tied, and hopefully to end my endometriosis, a hysterectomy will be soon to follow!! Now if only Gary and I could agree on a name!!!

As Garrett would say it shows her who-ha!

XOXO Sarah

Gideon Riley Jonas

Gideon, is my youngest son. He is my yoda man, my little smiler, and just seriously the most precious thing you will ever see!! Well, I hate to say it, but my little one is growing up. He started crawling last friday...Like it was hilarious. Because he would always get up rock back and forth...I kinda thought he was never going to REALLY crawl. Because he seemed so content ROLLING everywhere. Well, Friday night he gets up on his hands and knees and just starts going!! LIke he knew how the entire time. It was the cutest thing.

And that is not the end of it!! Saturday...he decides to sit up. He is crawling around the living room, he gently backs himself up, straightens a leg, and then POOF! My baby is now sitting!! It is just incredible. And the whole time, he just looks so proud of himself!! I could not believe it.

But!!!! Now he almost has it to where he can pull himself up! He grabs something and pulls himself to his knees and tries. My baby, is growing and doing too many things at one time!! I can't adjust!! :) I just cannot get over how fast these things are coming. I love my little Gideon man!!

Thanks for letting me dote a little!!

XOXO

Sarah

It's been a while

I have not written for a while. I think I just needed a break. My birthday was on sunday. It was a wonderful day. Gary was in a good mood all day too!! It was amazing! We went bowling with my sister Carol-Jean, a friend Matt, My sister Anne-Marie, her husband Steve, and their kids. Then went to dinner with CJ, Matt, and the kiddo's. Then went and saw a movie. It was a wonderful day. I always knew from the time I was little that I wanted to be a wife and mother, just like mine. I got married at 18. And really I could not be happier. I have 2 of the best kids on the planet!! Garrett is becoming more and more like me every day. Which is funny, Because when he gets drama queenish, I say... He gets it from his dad! HA!! But I never thought I would have 3 kids by the time I was 22. It is weird, how we have things planned out for ourselves, but God usually has something different.

This has been a rocky year. I have grown up a lot. And have changed a lot. I believe for the better too. I am starting to become my own person. I have gained and lost friends. I have changed neighborhoods. And I am starting to really get back into the church. For a while, I went, but could not always get why I was there. After Sparky died...I will say I got angry. And I resented a lot of things. I could not understand why God needed him. But I am getting better. And I know, now, why I need to continue in church. Church is a place, where you have people that can hold you accountable. And I need that.

Now a little bit farther back than my birthday. Easter was a ton of fun!! I loved it. It always has been one of my favorite holidays. It is funny how things from your childhood, creep into your children's. I hope you all had a blessed easter. God bless you all!!

XOXO

Sarah

CJ, Cameron & I on Easter--->

Life is good.

I have to say, Life is good right now. I am happily almost 3 months pregnant. Happily married. Which is nice. Because things have been really hard lately. Lots of fighting. But it seems like things are evening out. It is about time we got a BREAK!!

Our house is wonderful. Still a little creepy to be so far out with not much family around. But still nice to be in our own place. I still catch myself saying to Garrett "shh you have to be quiet...then I am like...OH WAIT be as loud as you want!!!!"

We got back from Idaho on Sunday. It was a nice trip...A LONG trip though.

But I feel like God is really Blessing our lives. And I am glad things are starting to feel like they should have been for a long time!! YAY!!

Gary and I at his sister's wedding. I love him...I do.

Garrett and Mommy. He was very nicely pulling my hair in this picture...Still love him though!! :)

Well Love you all and God bless

XOXO

Sarah

My new house

Okay, So you all know that I moved into a new house. It is beautiful...minus the poop brown with yellow trim exterior! But the inside I love. It has enough room for our growing family. It is perfect for us.

But if everything is so perfect...then why am I so sad when I get home? I feel like I am clear in the Boonies...well I am. I am 45 mins from my family, and that is if I speed and traffic is SUPER good. Yes, it could be worse...I get it. I could be in Idaho. But I still hate it. And for some reason I can't snap out of it.

It easily could be the pregnancy. I am super crazy and emotional right now. I had to go wait in the car for Gary when we went grocery shopping, because is was just too much for me to handle. I was on the verge of tears and hyperventilation!! And that is how I feel when I get home. And I don't know what to do about it...HELP ME!!

XOXO

Sarah

Packing & moving

I have decided I never want to move again. I hate packing with a passion. And tomorrow, the other stuff starts. THE MOVING! Which is exciting, but in the same aspect a little sad to me. This was our first home. Our first place with just US. Garrett's first home, with just mommy and daddy.

I have spent all week painting and packing. The packing part with the help of my mother and sister Anne-Marie. Which I am so incredibly grateful for, cause I would have been SO overwhelmed I would have just sat in the middle of the living room floor and cried. And I am so not even joking!! Garrett's room we painted "Buzz Blaster Blue" which is a fancy way of saying really pretty sky blue. It was from the Disney colors. The living and dinning rooms are a "moss green" and the hall will be a yellowy white. We did not paint Gideon's room any special color, because with the new baby any everything, we did not want to have to REPAINT. Cause of 2 reasons. 1. It is really hard work. 2. It is EXPENSIVE!!!

But, so tomorrow, we will be leaving the very first home that we had together. By ourselves. There are so many memories in this house. Some good. Some bad. Some GREAT. Some Horrible.

Well, I should get back to packing...

XOXO
Sarah

Some News...

I have not been on here in a while. I have been so busy. Gary and I did get our house. we are moving this next weekend. So I have been packing and packing and packing some more!! It has been crazy. It will be really nice to be out of these apartments. Away from the things holding me back and dragging me down.

But here is my latest news. Friday at my annual doctor appointment, I went and was getting checked in. Blood pressure, weight, urine sample, pregnancy test. I am disrobing in my room, when the nurse walks in -- without knocking I might add -- and goes: " Well, You are pregnant!" I stood there with my little gown on, and replied back, " ha ha really? you are joking right?" She was not joking...She was very very serious. And so I politely ask, "well can I see the test then?" She brings it back into the room and goes "see PINK means pregnant!!! CONGRATS!!!" Mind you I was excited, I was just in a state of shock, Because, well it was not easy for me to get pregnant with my other two babies...but this one was a piece of cake...and kinda an accident. Gary was shocked. He still has not adjusted to it. He is a little mad about it. But I figure it is just as much his fault as it is mine. It takes two to tango!! And he was the one who didn't want to use the condom....So yeah.

But that is my latest news!! Hope you all enjoyed!!

XOXO

Sarah

Grandparents-In-Law

I am so sick and tired of self righteous people. People that manipulate and weave webs of deceit all over the place.

For those that do not know. My in-laws are these kind of people. Especially my husband's grandparents. His grandmother...is EVIL!!! My sister is married to my husband's cousin. Nate, has dealt with a ton from his family. His father was a druggie, and his grandparent's kidnapped him from his mother who had custody. She later committed suicide. Nate, pretty much brought in the whole income for his father and him...because his dad could never stop using enough to hold a job. He almost did not graduate high school because of it. Even though he was at the top of his class...he missed too many days. Well, I married into the family too...and I am reaping the consequences.

His grandmother, told everyone in the entire world that we were moving. In my eyes, that is our joy to share with people. I nicely emailed her, and told her how I felt. I get this email back from her telling me thank you, because my sister never does that, and pretty much how horrible my sister and her husband are. But my sister for years and years and years tried to keep the peace, and just got shot down constantly. I told her why my sister and husband do not want them apart of their lives, and she wrote me back, and told me pretty much what a horrible person I am. And that Gary will hear about this, and so will his parents. GAH!!! Just shoot me!!

I am so angry I need to log off now..

XOXO
Sarah

Crap about Friends, again!

Friends...SUCK. This is what I have decided. You can never be sure what is going on with them. And usually, you don't know them as well as you think you do. I hate how people can't talk to you in front of your face, but they can stab you in the back. Why can't they just do it to your face...you think it might hurt a little less. I have come to the realization that I have 2 good friends, that are not family. And they are the ones, who I know will always be there for me. But I have also come to know that Blood is thicker than water. And that the people you can usually ALWAYS trust is your family. They will always be there for you. Also if they have a problem with you...they tell you to your face...Which is nice. It might hurt, but at least you know they still care and everything. With friends you don't. Because they can always tell you all this stuff to your face, then end up talking crap behind your back.

It is looking like Gary and I might not be able to get this house now either. But I can't and won't stay in these apartments anymore. To me they are not safe. Not anymore. I care too much about my children to put them at any risk. And here you never know what could happen.

I just need out of here. Away from the drama, and away from the people who are tearing me down.

But I am gonna go to sleep now.

XOXO
Sarah

An Unhappy Ending.

Gary and I are not happy. We have not been for a while. I hope and I pray that this is only because of the stress of having a new baby, a new puppy, and trying to buy a house. And we are so close to getting this house... I am just hoping that we do not get this house...then have to give up.

When Gary and I got back together...at our counseling, we made a promise to each other that just because things are getting hard, we cannot threaten to leave. We need to talk about it, then figure out what is making us feel that way...Lately, that is all Gary has been doing. If I spend too much time with either friends, or family... he says "I am not number one on your list...and if this does not start to change then I am done with all of this." If I don't get the house clean just the way that he likes it..." I'm going to be done with all of this if you don't start showing initive with YOUR job." I understand that I am not the best house keeper...But I try. And I always have my kids clean, and dressed to the tee...and usually myself as well. But he never sees the good. Only the bad.

I just want to say SCREW IT ALL!!! But I don't because I love my husband. I came back to make things work. To make them better. But it is getting hard to even see the use anymore.

Now his family is thinking about coming to help us move, if we get this house. My family is more than capable of helping...why do they need to come to? He knows that all his mother ever does is put me down. Puts how I raise my kids down...and usually, she tells me that I don't keep myself up enough. Because I don't look just like I did when we got married. What is the use of trying around them?

Pray for me. And my unhappy ending.

XOXO

Sarah

I have been having a hard couple of days. I have been having issues with some friends, as you know from my previous post. Life is really hard right now. Gary and I are trying not to murder one another. But letting go of a friendship that has been such a huge part of me changing and becoming a stronger person, is really hard to let go. I am trying...but everyday it is breaking my heart more.

I have also learned some news on one of my other best friends. She is getting a divorce. Her husband is just giving up. After she took him back, after him cheating on her. But now it is her husbands choice. I wish that I could be there for her. I wish that I could hold her and let her cry. But with her so far away, and everything. I can't. I am hoping she can come home on leave soon.

Also, my medicine...is making me hallucinate. I am pretty sure. It is rather frightening, because it usually happens while I am driving.

Garrett and Gideon, are the 2 things that are holding me together. And that is wonderful. I love the fact that I can be with them everyday. Yeah, it gets tough, it gets annoying...but I would not change it for anything in the world.

Oh well, I guess it is just the Bitch of living!!

XOXO

Sarah

Friends...again.

I have learned with a really hard situation...that friends are not always what they seem. They are not always good people. And that sucks. I hate being used. I hate having people treat me like CRAP.

I have to let go. I have to let 3 years of friendship with someone that I really cared about go. But it needs to be done. And it will be.

I just need help. I need people to be there for me. So thanks to all those have been.

XOXO

Sarah

There is a point in your life when you get tired of trying to fix everything and trying to make everyone happy. When you decide to quit it is NOT giving up, it is realizing you don't need certain people and the bullshit they bring to your life!

"Who are you to judge the life I live?I know I am not perfect & I don't live to be, but before you start pointing fingers make sure your hands are clean! -Bob Marley"

LOVE??

Love, Love is beginning to be a funny word to me. I am so lost in its meaning anymore. I don't really think it is a good situation when you are starting to forget why you fell in love. And I am trying. Really trying. Gary used to be so different. So happy. Now, he is always upset. And always pissed off about something. I am not even sure What I did anymore. But it is always something. He can never see the positive anymore. Only the negative. That really gets me. I am so in love with him, it is the reason I came back in the first place. But I have to wonder why I did sometimes. My heart always hurts, and it is always breaking. I Don't get it anymore. My life is falling apart. I have everything I want...But not everything I NEED. All I really want is to be loved, and to know that I am loved. Why is it that I cannot get the same thing my parents have?? My mom has never doubted whether or not my dad loved her. Why is it then that I do...That sometimes it would have been better if I stayed gone.

He doesn't even know me anymore. I am a completely different person. I am working on getting myself back. But I am starting to become a pretty strong person, and that is bad. At least to him. I have started to take the time out that I need. When I need a break, or I am getting overwhelmed, I have started to escape. Which he hates, because it puts responsibility on him, and he cannot just sit on the computer and play his games with his brother and cousins and stuff. I just want to yell at him, They are your kids too!! Watch them!! But now, I hardly ask. I just say where I am going and when I will be home.

The only person who can really help me anymore is God, and sometimes it is hard to know when he is there.

XOXO

Sarah

2009, brings new challenges.

So, 2008 has come and gone. And already 2009 is already presenting some new challenges. Things with friends, my marriage, and my children. Gideon, I think has his first cold. This past year has been tough. Gary and I have been back together for a year and a half now. My precious baby Gideon was born on September 29Th. He was a whopping 8 pound 3 ounces and 20 inches long. And the doctor said he was going to be small...HA!!
My sisters, Shayna and Dianna, also had babies this year. The first was Erika Rose. Born in April. Then Connor Matthew, born in November...Just a few weeks after my little Gideon.

We are trying to buy a house. We have found one that we both really like. Gary loves the location...That is the thing I am not very happy about. It is clear out in Molalla. Which puts me a lot closer to Shayna, but a lot farther from my parents, and my friends too. Which totally sucks. I hate it. We are putting a written offer in on it tomorrow. I am ready to be out of the apartments, I have been for a long time. But it is still a scary move. For both of us!!

But the thing that is presenting the biggest challenge is...

My husband, if you don't know him, has made it clear that he wants 2 kids. No more than that...I had Gideon in September. The very end. And now...the scare. I believe that I could be pregnant. I am late, moody, and nauseous all the time. I am happy that this is a possibility...and it will defiantly be the easiest time I have ever gotten pregnant. But my youngest is 3 months. That is a little soon for me. So it is good and bad all at the same time. I am happy and scared too. I finally told Gary about it yesterday... and he FLIPPED OUT!!!! Which is so dumb...I didn't climb on top of myself and get pregnant (if I am)!! But he has been like this with every pregnancy. It has not been easy at all. He acts like it was an accident each and every time. Then he gets all this sympathy from his family...especially his mother. Who all act like I tricked him into it.

I am excited to see what this year brings!! Hopefully it will be easier than the last two!! Well I am going to sign off now.

XOXO
Sarah