Gary and I are not happy. We have not been for a while. I hope and I pray that this is only because of the stress of having a new baby, a new puppy, and trying to buy a house. And we are so close to getting this house... I am just hoping that we do not get this house...then have to give up.
When Gary and I got back together...at our counseling, we made a promise to each other that just because things are getting hard, we cannot threaten to leave. We need to talk about it, then figure out what is making us feel that way...Lately, that is all Gary has been doing. If I spend too much time with either friends, or family... he says "I am not number one on your list...and if this does not start to change then I am done with all of this." If I don't get the house clean just the way that he likes it..." I'm going to be done with all of this if you don't start showing initive with YOUR job." I understand that I am not the best house keeper...But I try. And I always have my kids clean, and dressed to the tee...and usually myself as well. But he never sees the good. Only the bad.
I just want to say SCREW IT ALL!!! But I don't because I love my husband. I came back to make things work. To make them better. But it is getting hard to even see the use anymore.
Now his family is thinking about coming to help us move, if we get this house. My family is more than capable of helping...why do they need to come to? He knows that all his mother ever does is put me down. Puts how I raise my kids down...and usually, she tells me that I don't keep myself up enough. Because I don't look just like I did when we got married. What is the use of trying around them?
Pray for me. And my unhappy ending.
When Gary and I got back together...at our counseling, we made a promise to each other that just because things are getting hard, we cannot threaten to leave. We need to talk about it, then figure out what is making us feel that way...Lately, that is all Gary has been doing. If I spend too much time with either friends, or family... he says "I am not number one on your list...and if this does not start to change then I am done with all of this." If I don't get the house clean just the way that he likes it..." I'm going to be done with all of this if you don't start showing initive with YOUR job." I understand that I am not the best house keeper...But I try. And I always have my kids clean, and dressed to the tee...and usually myself as well. But he never sees the good. Only the bad.
I just want to say SCREW IT ALL!!! But I don't because I love my husband. I came back to make things work. To make them better. But it is getting hard to even see the use anymore.
Now his family is thinking about coming to help us move, if we get this house. My family is more than capable of helping...why do they need to come to? He knows that all his mother ever does is put me down. Puts how I raise my kids down...and usually, she tells me that I don't keep myself up enough. Because I don't look just like I did when we got married. What is the use of trying around them?
Pray for me. And my unhappy ending.
XOXO
Sarah
well if I ever hear that woman put anyone in my family down i.e you, elizabeth, mom ANYONE she will def. have a mouth full from me! I am so SICK of her and her mother I just want to scream! Things get hard but they will straighten up again! you just gotta keep faith and work through the tough times! Lord knows it aint easy! :) Love you! stay strong!
ReplyDeleteI agree, stay strong. You and Gary are the center of your kids world. Continue to love and cherish them. Focus on the good things that are going on. And know that you have a praying friend in me.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much both of you!! I appreciate the prayers. I really need them. Staying strong is getting harder and harder to do.
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